Nektir

this seems to be yearly.

an attempt to grab onto the reins of life and finally move forward. but is this truly the turning point or just another meager effort loaded with excuses and fear.

only time will tell.

i thought i had a handle on things, understood things. but it seems i’ve intellectualized myself into a deep pit that’s collapsing in upon itself, keeping me trapped at the bottom.  it almost feels like i keep falling further than i was before.

let’s make a real effort. a promise to myself to be better or to finally entirely give up.

ready? i hope so…